You are the person to see my pain

In the Beginning All Was Weird...

I met Kelly on Valentines Day, 1997, I was DJing a party at the local college for the LesBiGay Club there. I really didn't pay much attention to her other to think that she was cute, I was having a little crisis. My girlfriend at the time, Megan had come from school to spend Valentines Day with me, which was about an hour away, but Kris, the love of my life had also decided to be there that night. She lived about a hundred miles away. Things where very weird for me that night to say the least. I was trapped between two women I cared about very much, I barely made it through that night alive, let alone notice another girl! But for some strange reason I did notice Kelly. I had heard about her for a few months from a common friend of ours, but had never met her until this night. When I met her I had just gotten done arguing with Kristen, my mind was a million miles away. I was abit rude to say the least, we where introduced, I mumbled, "hi" and started walking away. But at the same time I realized that I wished I had talked to her, to Kelly, for some reason I was disappointed in myself for walking away. I wanted to talk to her, but I had a party to DJ for. I didn't think I'd ever get a chance to talk to her again. That night I was at a party that another friend of mine was having, Megan and Kristen where both there, it was uncomfortable to say the least. they both where fighting for my attention all night and Kris couldn't, or rather wouldn't stop making snide comments about Megan all night. I went downstairs to get away, to think, but when I closesd my eyes, I saw her intense green eyes. I wished that Kelly was there at the party so I could have the chance to talk to her, but I doubted I'd ever see her again, our lives ran in different circles. Instead of sitting by myself, trying to stay away from Megan and Kris, I could have been talking to Kelly, I could have invited her to the party, but I didn't think her girlfriend would have liked that too much... Why was I even thinking about her? I didn't even know her, my girlfriend was there, along with the love of my life, so why was this girl, Kelly, invading even a few brief moments of my thoughts. I brushed the thought of her out of my mind, reluctantly.Opportunity had knocked and I missed it.....


A couple months later I had broken up with Megan and given up on Kris (for the time being at least. The college was having it's Gay Awareness Week, so I was helping out. They where showing a movie and needed someone to run the Audio/Video equipment, so being the nice person I am, I volunteered. Before people started showing up a friend and I were goofing around on the stage, she was playing the Indigo Girls on her guitar and I was singing along. We didn't even notice the people who Had come in while we were messing around. Gen and I were going crazy on "Closer To Fine" When we got done, people started clapping and yelling, my face got bright red as I realized we'd had an audience, just as luck would have it, Kelly was there. I wanted to crawl under the stage, instead I hammed it up and bowed, Gen asking if there was an requests. At that point I told her I had to go set the equipment up. After I had gotten the movie started I went and grabbed some popcorn and sat behind Kelly in the tiny theatre. She was watching the movie, which was boring me, (For those of you who are interested in what movie we were watching it was Jeffrey). I don't know why, but I really wanted Kelly's attention focused on me, not on the movie, not on Bonnie the girl she was ith, but on me. So I started throwing popcorn at her. I hit Bonnie a few times, she just looked back at me and glared, she never really liked me much anyways (probably because I was cuter.) Anyways, finally I got Kelly's attention, she turned around and gave me this amazing smile, it was the kind of smile that just lights up your heart and gives you warm fuzzies all over. I don't know why I didn't say anything then, maybe it was because from across the room her ex girlfriend was glaring at me or maybe because Bonnie was giving me looks that could kill. Whatever it was I just kind of gave her a lame smile in return and got up to go smoke a cigarette outside. A couple minutes later she came outside and joined me. I said hi and she said hi, I was surprised that she knew my name though, I didn't think she noticed me when we had met before. We talked for a couple minutes and I asked her how long Bonnie and her had been together, she laughed and told me they weren't. I told her I just assumed because Bonnie was always talking about her and it just seemed like they were together, she started to say something else when Bonnie came out by us. Bonnie of course shot me a dirty look and dragged Kelly away.
I finsihed my smoke and went back inside to clean up. After the movie everyone was talking about going to Denny's afterwards, I was going to pass, I had a lot of things to do still, like fill out applications for summer camps I wanted to work at. Gen talked me into going so I found myself sitting next to Kelly at Dennyt's an hour later. Bonnie and her ex where down at the other end of the table. Kelly was flirting wiht me hard core but I didn't think much of it, I found her a bit on the annoying side.